Time really does fly. It's hard to believe that it's already mid July. The last few months have been a hectic blur of ups and downs. Frantic preparation balanced with the over ridding call to just sit back and relax. But now I am two days out from taking my trip to China, I feel... I am not sure what I feel. Anticipation yes, trepidation yes, but also a sense of lethargic laziness... It's almost like I've run out of steam just short of the goal... which is terrible. Especially considering that in about a weeks time i will be going up before some top class judges to get my grading.
In a way its almost anti climatic... I've not had as much time to train as i would like, or have had enough people to help me train or knowing 100% on what to train either. I guess none of these things really help. But you know what... I will do what i do best... winging it... which is what makes me feel so... calm in a sense. Maybe it all just hasn't hit yet though. no doubt the nerves will be there on the day. it is inevitable. But I guess I shall see.
Any who... its a wonder how things have come to this late a stage. There's no regret now. just got to keep going forward with what i have now. cant do much about anything with only a week or so to go. If this all turns out well... then a new path is opening up before me. An exciting path, a hard path... but one that could be really rewarding. I'm looking forward to the day where i have a huge class before me and i can teach them what i know about kung fu... now that would be awesome...
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